(an old shot of Lizzy)
Today our licensing worker called to set up a time to come renew our fostering license. After reading everything I did yesterday there is part of me that thinks it would be so much easier to NOT renew. I know that would mean Lizzy would have to be moved, so of course we aren't doing that, but I hate that part of my reason for keeping our license open is the what ifs.
What if Sabrina comes back into care?
(By the way, I texted her mom yesterday and she said that Grandma is home and back to work. That was good to hear.)
What if by some miracle our little girls come back into care in our state?
What if we get "The Call" that is for our next beautiful little person?
Will we ever adopt?
Will we adopt Lizzy?
Will we have the chance to adopt Lizzy?
Fostering is something I would LOVE to do forever...and I also would LOVE to close this chapter of my life and move on. Honestly, I guess I don't know what I want, but I find it interesting that at every moment I have ever been ready to quit God has everything set up so that I have many reasons not to.
I guess HE knows something I don't.