Saturday, September 13, 2014

Tuesday, July 1, 2014


Took all 7, by myself, to get donuts this morning.  They all did great.  It is nice to have a "nice" morning with the kids.

Friday, June 27, 2014

Too long.

It cracks me up that I feel like I have nothing to say when there is soooo much to say.  So much.

We are still a family of nine, even though that was never really a question, but some days it feels like we are lucky to finish another day as a family unit.

I have SO many kids!

They are such hard work!

But I don't know what I would do without them.

Every day it is something.  This one puked, that one peed, this one lied, that one emptied a whole roll of toilet paper into the toilet....

It is funny what you are capable of when you have no option of quitting.

We are close to two years into this adoption and I still find myself wondering, "Is that a sign she has RAD?"  "Is he doing that because he has RAD?"

I still worry about that scary diagnosis.  None of my kids have been diagnosed with anything.  Even the one that came to me with ADHD has since been undiagnosed.  I long for the day that I don't worry about what the future holds.

All I can say is that things ARE getting better, getting easier...we are becoming a family.  It is a lot of work though.

Monday, February 17, 2014

On becoming a CASA....

You know, I have had times when I was like, "I WILL become a CASA!"

It sounds kinda great, especially after being in many situations where I felt totally helpless when it came to court and my foster kids.

My concerns are:

How much time it will take to train to become a CASA.  I am not sure if I am exaggerating it in my head, but I feel like I probably wouldn't have enough time right now.  I will have to look into that.

Also, I have heard about a few not so good CASAs and how much the foster parents don't like them.  I worry that I might find myself in a situation like that.  What if they don't like me?  At least one party won't, most likely, because you will be on a "side".

I am not sure that I can be impartial.  I feel like I might think that every bio needs their rights terminated because I have been a foster parent.  But, on the flip side, what if I am too sympathetic to the bios?  Even in my own children's cases I would tend to make excuses for them.

I know the goal is to be on the side of the child.  I think I could do that.  Perhaps I would need to be a CASA to an older child so they could tell me what THEY want...even though that could come with its own set of issues if I don't agree with them....

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

I am aching for a call to come that won't.  I wonder what I should do with my need to foster when I cannot foster.

Tuesday, February 11, 2014


Lizzy's bio dad moved to the other side of the country.  Pretty much as far away from us as he could without leaving the country.

I felt myself exhale a little bit upon learning this news.

Thursday, November 21, 2013


where have I been???

darn facebook.

makes me not feel the need to blog.