Monday, February 17, 2014

On becoming a CASA....

You know, I have had times when I was like, "I WILL become a CASA!"

It sounds kinda great, especially after being in many situations where I felt totally helpless when it came to court and my foster kids.

My concerns are:

How much time it will take to train to become a CASA.  I am not sure if I am exaggerating it in my head, but I feel like I probably wouldn't have enough time right now.  I will have to look into that.

Also, I have heard about a few not so good CASAs and how much the foster parents don't like them.  I worry that I might find myself in a situation like that.  What if they don't like me?  At least one party won't, most likely, because you will be on a "side".

I am not sure that I can be impartial.  I feel like I might think that every bio needs their rights terminated because I have been a foster parent.  But, on the flip side, what if I am too sympathetic to the bios?  Even in my own children's cases I would tend to make excuses for them.

I know the goal is to be on the side of the child.  I think I could do that.  Perhaps I would need to be a CASA to an older child so they could tell me what THEY want...even though that could come with its own set of issues if I don't agree with them....

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

I am aching for a call to come that won't.  I wonder what I should do with my need to foster when I cannot foster.

Tuesday, February 11, 2014


Lizzy's bio dad moved to the other side of the country.  Pretty much as far away from us as he could without leaving the country.

I felt myself exhale a little bit upon learning this news.