Wednesday, October 28, 2015

The lying. The never ending lying.

Some days I just want to give up.

My oldest daughter is the biggest manipulative liar I have ever met.

She is also my biggest helper, so good with the babies, kind (most of the time), fun, responsible....

It kills me when she weaves these crazy lies.

This one was concerning my other daughter, the one closest in age to her (Lizzy.)

I found out about two really crappy things she did to Lizzy today.

It was like she just woke up this morning and decided to have it out for Lizzy.

It broke my heart that she would do such mean things to her sister.

Then, of course, lie about it to my husband and I.

And better yet, I totally over reacted and really ripped into her.

Uggghhhh.  I did manage to calm myself down faster than in the past.

Oh, and it's the know, the three year anniversary of this child coming to live with us.
Big surprise the she woke up and regressed to old behaviors, huh.

I will never get over how all these anniversaries trigger these poor kids.

Monday, October 26, 2015

Other Foster Care Blogs

If you love foster care and love adoption, you need to start following this story:


Seven years ago I was a normal mom.  
I had one kid.  
My husband and I took him to do normal kid things.

I loved that kid a ridiculous amount.
I still love that kid a ridiculous amount.
I got married the summer after I graduated from high school.
14 years later I am still married.
One first child is now 13 years old.
He has been an older foster brother to 12 kids.
Now he is the oldest of 8 children.

As anyone can imagine, adopting 6 kids can flip anyone's life upside down.
I would be lying if I said I never missed the 'easy' days, the ones spent with just this kid.

I wouldn't trade my current life for anything.
But I would pay a lot of money to go back in time for just one day and be 'normal' again.

Saturday, October 24, 2015

Am I back?

You guys are SO sweet!  Yes, I abandoned the blog for months because:

I have 8 kids to take care of


my internet access and computer have been a bit hard to get to.

To come back to such sweet comments on here really surprised me.  It shouldn't have.
Blogging, literally, is what got me through some of my HARDEST times during fostering.

Anyway, thank you for checking on me.

I am SO hoping that I can get back into blogging regularly because I MISS it and I LOVE it.


Things of note:

-We finished our 8th child's adoption.  It took 10 months, but it is done!!

-We closed our foster care license about a week after we finished the adoption.  It's not like they are going to give us any more kids at this point.

-School has started and 5 of my kids are in school full time.  It is wonderful.  They are happy too.  ;)

Over the last two years, during all my 'radio silence' here, SO much has happened.  We are just now coming up for air.  I am trying to figure out what that means for this blog...and other things.

I am toying with the idea of pulling up posts from my first blog so that everything is in one place, from the beginning of foster care to now.

I am also debating about not being anonymous anymore.  I am no longer a foster mom.  I don't have a bunch of rules I have to follow.

So, we will see what happens.  I am hoping I am back for good.

I guess we will find out.