Thursday, October 13, 2011

One Year.

One year ago today my worst fear of foster care became a reality.

I got a call after a court hearing that told me that a child I had loved like my own for 16 months would be leaving my house and going to live with someone I knew could not protect her.

One year ago every reason why I had NOT wanted to do foster care came and slapped me in the face.

It was a very hard day. But, it did not kill me. I didn't curl up in a ball and stop functioning.

I lived. My family lived. We are changed. We saw that even if "the worst" happened God would get us through it.

It was horrible. But, 1 year later Sabrina's mom and I are in a place where if I wanted to come see her I know her mom would let me.

Fostering is hard and you WILL get hurt. You will watch "your" kids get hurt and you will be helpless. It is no easy task to love these kids and then watch them disappear, but "Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me." -Matthew 25-40


CherubMamma said...

I'm always so encouraged by you and your story!

Maggie said...


Anonymous said...

Amen. I needed to hear these words right now!

The House that Jak and Nick Built said...

Thank you for posting this. We just said good bye to our 1st foster baby this week and we are still reeling with grief. (and she was only with us for a month) I can't imagine surviving saying good bye after 16 months. My husband and I are questioning our calling & wondering why we signed up for this torture. But I read Matt 25:40 and praise Him for letting us be apart of 1 foster baby's life.

Diane said...

I can't believe it has been a year already! So glad you and S's mom have developed an ongoing relationship. Your insightfulness is so refreshing and encouraging!

Mary said...

16 months- wow. Thank you for being a great example of selflessness and SURVIVING despite the heartache!