Natural.

I wish I was a natural when it came to being an adoptive mom. I think at one point I was, and then foster care beat it out of me. Foster care has given ME the dreaded RAD and it has manifested itself not so nicely some days...

But then, the God of the universe looked at me and gave me the one thing that would change all of that.

He gave me a biological daughter at the same time as He gave me an adopted daughter. He is using that little biological wonder to teach me how to parent my little adopted wonder better than I would have other wise.

Everyday I want the same thing with BOTH my girls. I want to Have a relationship that will last forever with them. I want them to know I love them. I want to be their mommy they run to with boo boo when they are little and their best friend when they are young women.

Sometimes it is harder for me to parent my adopted daughter than it is to parent my bio kids. She has been through things NONE of us have ever been through. She and I have been through two years of non stop stress together that is just now starting to calm down.

At the end of the day, when my sweet adopted daughter is grown, and we are sitting around the dinner table together laughing about something it will be all the more sweeter because I will know what it took for us to get there and until then I will fight every day for that moment.