When I look into my newest baby's eyes I wonder....
Did her mother have any idea that the moment she handed her baby over to the police it would be the last time she would EVER see her?
Did her heart sink to her feet when she heard the knock at the door that she knew would come eventually?
Did a tiny part of her say goodbye forever as she kissed her on the head?
Everytime I look into this sweet baby's eyes I can't help but wonder how heart broken her first mother is....because I know how heart broken I would be if someone came to the door and demanded that I hand her over to them, forever.
I don't see her first mom as a monster. I can't. I have handed over my "daughter" to a social worker (to be returned to her bio mom) and I know what it feels like to wonder if I will EVER see my little girl again.
I know how badly it hurts.
In my heart I hope someday it will be a GOOD idea to contact their bio mom and let her back into their lives. It is hard to be in a spot where you will never really know if that is the case. I want that for her though. I want her to get to see the children she gave birth to again.